Loving You

As I was listening to the Lionel Rich song "Hello", I was caught by the line " ARE YOU SOMEWHERE FEELING LONELY, OR IS SOMEONE LOVING YOU?"
I gave it a thought just after I sang along and my response was "I'm somewhere loving myself."

I've been in a space where loving myself was the most difficult thing to do because of some past experiences I've had in life. Though I knew that I am the only person  I'll have on my side for the longest time, I still couldn't live with me everyday.
I was so ashamed of myself and not so proud of me. I was just so sad, complained about everything around me and within me, I blamed me for everything I was passing through I was just so bad that I accepted negativity to make me its painting board, and no matter how much someone would wanna show me love, it wouldn't be enough but they would get hurt for trying.


When I got my break, I couldn't believe it myself. It was through someone among the lovers who came and Introduced the knowledge of Jesus Christ to me, I'm grateful for that to this day, because  that's when I saw mercy rewriting my life.
Through the love of God I've learned to love myself. To be easy on me, to forgive my past and myself as well. I've learned to see how amazing and beautiful life can be. I changed my point of view and realized that indeed beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. Today I can proudly stand and say, " I'm somewhere loving myself."
With all the green flags I replaced the red ones. I laugh with meaning from the bottom of my heart, I breath a positively.
Peace has become my mind guide and all day long I live knowing I am worth it, my life is for a purpose. I look at my scars and be proud of me because I overcame. They are just reminders that I showed up. I've learned that pain is just another way of redirection and through out my life, I've been directed to get where I am today.

I love me and I live everyday acknowledging that the Man above has plans to prosper me and that His plans are far from harming me. I'm happier than I ever was, I don't have much time to sit and feel lonely anymore because loving me come with a lot of work.

If you ever sit and feel lonely, ask God how to love yourself then try it, it worked for me.

~I am Hannah Word

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